This train of thought led me to how bored I am with my life. Again, don't get me wrong, I love my husband and son with all my heart. I would never do anything to hurt or lose them. Yet part of me thinks there's got to be more to life than getting up everyday to do the same routine day in and day out. Depression and anxiety have robbed me of too much of my life.
I have a lot to be grateful for, so why isnt it enough? Most of my close friends live a distance away, and have families of their own, and work,, so it can be difficult to coordinate schedules. My career path hasn't worked out as I had planned.
To tell you the truth, I don't even know what to do to make changes, to not feel so bored. I used to be in therapy, and honestly, probably ought to be in it now. Money is an issue, and i work for the biggest psych clinic/hospital in town, so I don't want to see a coworker, even one who works in a different dept than me. Ive seen several therapists for short periods of time, but only one that I feel really connected with and understood me. Unfortunately he has to relocate to over 90 minutes away from here.
Thank you for taking the time to read this...I feel a little better. I think if I had someone I could really talk to, I would feel better.