I try to tell my husband, friends, and doctor that Im so depressed and just want to kill myself and no one will listen. Again! They all tell me Im going to be fine but I think I know how I feel better than they do. I want to runaway and leave my family and never come back. I dont care that I sound stupid I just want an easy way out. I feel like my kids arent mine, like they belong to my husband and just him. I dont want to be around any of them and am so angered to be here but Im pretty much forced because he is deployed and please trust me when I say I dont care. He isnt much help when hes around. I feel trapped, panicked and angry as hell.