i did the worst thing ever yesterday.
You are human, you made a mistake. Don't beat yourself up over it momma. Your a very caring, loving, special woman.
I was once told when my rage came out like that, it was because I felt safe with the person I was with. I knew I could rage at him, and even hit him, and he wouldn't hurt me back. I used to have such a problem with rage.
Today is a new start, forgive yourself and move on >)
Quoting Tracys2:I'm so very sorry!
Please don't be so hard on yourself. You say you slip up every few years. That means you have years where you don't slip up, and you're responsible, and you wave away drinks people are trying to give you. That is not easy. And look what you're doing now. You feel bad. You're apologising. You're being really hard on yourself. Those are all signs of a good person who made a mistake. You are going to need to forgive yourself, just as much as they are.
Hugs to you, and peace, and healing.
Quoting mrsvixen:
I was once told when my rage came out like that, it was because I felt safe with the person I was with. I knew I could rage at him, and even hit him, and he wouldn't hurt me back. I used to have such a problem with rage.
Today is a new start, forgive yourself and move on >)
If you were perfect, you're name would be Jesus.
As it is, you've asked for forgiveness and you've received it from two very important people in your life who obviously love you very much.
Do they know the reason for your rage? Is your family willing to help you get through episodes like this?
There's every reason in the world to walk away when you stub your toe but there's a universe of reasons to stay and forgive yourself and keep moving forward. You're a good person (I can tell by your responses on some of the threads). Cut yourself a little slack here.
Quoting matreshka:Took my am meds and had breakfast. I think dh should divorce me. I'm not a good person. I slip up every few years like this. I don't want my kids to be like this. Luckily my oldest didn't see any of it because he wasn't with me.
Oh Matreshka, don't be so hard on yourself. I think you're a wonderful person, just by reading all your posts over the past yr. We all do things & mess up. Do you know why you drank so much? Was it because you were trying to be more social? I'm sure your family & husband loves you so much, so having a slip up doesn't change that at all. 
Quoting matreshka:
Took my am meds and had breakfast. I think dh should divorce me. I'm not a good person. I slip up every few years like this. I don't want my kids to be like this. Luckily my oldest didn't see any of it because he wasn't with me.
So sorry for what you are going through. Beating yourself and not taking the time to look at why you could not resist the drinks is more important. I think knowing why you drank will help you the next time temptation rears its ugly head! Hugs to you. You r hubby should not want to divorce you. Couples need to stikck together and work through these issues. He loves you and needs to hear how upset and sorry you about this.
So depressed all the time
- DixieL
on May. 13, 2012 at 1:55 PMI used to be the same way when I drank. They will forgive you. Happy Mother's Day