Hi, im amber, im new to this group im 20 and pregnant with my 2nd child, my son is 6 months old and i have extreme post partum depression, and not allowed to take meds for it (considering im preg)
Im trying soo hard to not let my depression get control of me, my doc told me today that post partum is one of the worst type of depressions, I only just admitted it to myself about a month or so ago and its been going on since my son was 2 weeks. :(
My husband is bipolar with ptsd and depression as well, and he is the most amazing guy... EXCEPT right after he is woken up, he gets so mad about everything that happens within the first hour of waking up and sometimes the arguments get so bad, i know its his bipolar and my depression and everything but it hurts and puts me in a horrible depressed mood that i cant get myself out of for days. then right after i start feeling better something happens to put me in my depressed mood again.
ALSO i cant stand my DH's parents! his mom mostly though. she is bipolar as well with alot of mental problems and i understand that you cant control that (i know what its like not to be able to control your emotions) but she really knew how to insult me! Apparently i disowned my son by leaving him in the living room with his father who promised i could sleep in since i dropped his drunk friend off at his house 20 miles away at 2 in the morning, and he fell asleep on the floor with my son in the pack n play just fine but cuz i left him out there and THEIR son fell asleep on his own son (who is half his, so really why cant i ever sleep in without it meaning im disowning my son?) like really? ugh, and she talks shit about me behind my back. i have never done anything to her :( then she started talking shit about my mom who is deaf so i get really defensive when people talk crap about her, she has depression and has almost killed herself just from the lonliness, and she only talked shit because my mom didnt come over and clean our house~! wtf, we are 20 not 12, my mom didnt even clean my room when i was living there why should she come clean our house for us! anyway yeah, i almost punched her in the face, it was my pregnancy hormones i have never came close to punching anyone but she put me in such a depressed mood and then we got evicted from our apartment for fHIS MOM yelling and screaming at me since i told her to get out of my house cuz she was being disrespectful. and that was a week after i found out i was pregnant again,
Sometime i just wanna run away from my life but i love my family so much. i dont know how to get through this :( lifes a bitch.