My OB put me on alprazolam for a month. I don't see it helping. I feel like I can't keep going like this anymore. I'm loosing it. I get made really fast ,yell and snap for no reason. Ive had lots of suicide thoughts but there's no way I would.leave my.son and.hubby. also this has affected my feelings/ attitude toward my husband. He is a good hardworking man. Always. Gone working. He has a 6 days a week job than cuts grass on the side so hes really never home. But I feel like i have no passion at all for. Him and I know I love him but I feel like I just live with him. I hope you know what I mean , I can't really explain that feeling. We are always fighting about.something lately because. I blow things up and make a big deal when there not. I have.no friends and stay in this house almost 24/7 so I'm sure that don't.help. sometimes I don't even feel like dealing with my baby. I feel like taking him to a family member that will take wonderful care of him and check myslef out!