OK well I have been depressed for a while now. It really got worse since I have moved back SC.
Now I don't get along with my mother in-law at all. She is just not a nice person. She has told my husband that it was stupid of him marry a girl from the north (so 1862 ) and the bad thing is that my husband is a mama's boy. So we lived in SC the first 8 years of us being together. Hated my job and his family did not welcome me at all. I had two kids between my 8 and 4 year old I had 6 miscarriages and gained over 119lbs. I did not have any family anywhere near, so that did not help. The relationship between me and started to go down hill. Since I really wanted to leave SC we agreed to move to FL. I loved FL I went to school there and loved everything about it so he agreed to move. So I transferred my job and husband was to get a new job before we went I went ahead three months before he did since I had to go with my job and the kids was still in school so he stayed with then until it was out. He had me under the impression that he was looking for a job and had one in the works. So when he moved down it was not true about the job. It took him 3 months to find a job so I was working over time to take care of everything. Then he did find a job it was going fine. Then he lost that after two month but he got another one in about a week so I was not mad. He was working and lost that job about 5 months later. Now while he started the second job he agreed that I could cut back my hours to go to part time so I can finish school. My job would not allow me to go back to full time.
Since we could not make it we had to move back to SC but the bad thing is that I have to move in with the in-laws. Soon as I got here my depression set in worse. We only have one car and now that my husband works he drives our car to work and my in-laws will not allow me to drive their car not even to get food for my kids I have to wait until my husband get home from working a 12 shift. My mother in-law does not allow me to cook on her stove so I have to cook in a slow cooker and a toaster oven. I have all our clothes in two rooms that my husband and I can not use the closets or dressers. My husband and I are fighting more because I tell him about his mom. So I stay in the room and just look at four walls. My in-lawslive in the country the closes Wal-mart is about 40 minutes aways and the only houses on the road are my husband family. So we got into a big fight the other day and he told me that he did not want to be married any more. So where to go from here now. I am in a place that I don't have a family nor do I have the money to get back home. Now I am in a place that I really don't want to be nor am i wanted. I hate everything right now I am always in the room. I hate looking at my husband more and more each day. I want to fight my mother in-law. Her voice makes my head hurt. The other day I just wanted to walk away from the house but I do have two kids to think about.
I hate feeling this way like I just want to walk away with out my kids. That is not me.
Thanks for reading