i am trapped five states away from family and ANY friends. i feel completely iccolated from the word and so depressed. whats worse is im currently fully dependent an abusive man. and when i say fully i mean no car, no money of my own, nothing. actually i have a vehicle that broke and while it kinda runs ive been told im not aloud to leave the house unless im going to work. thursday i drove to work i took a different route same distance so i could get a bagel to settle my stomach ( morning sickness from hell) the cra broke on the way and i was stuck in 113 degrees for an hour. when df got there and when i called all he did was scream at me that i never listen and how dare i go driving around town on the gas he put in my car for a "stupid fucking craving" and from now on to "stay my ass at home" toay its fourth of july. i see all my friends and family in my home state going places and oing things and ejoying it. i sit here crying because f screamed at me and refses to talk to me over something stupid and while we were invited to a party by his mothers friend, df wont go , or i dont know if HES going but im apparently not doing anything... im stuck in these walls with my dd alone until he comes home to yell some more. all i do is work and sit home, duing the semester i struggle greatly in school then go straight to work and come back home. i was supposed to go visit my family 5 states away but now i cant. and im miserable! im over this !!! im over being treated liek crap ,and nt even having a girlfriend to talk to , hell if my best friend from my home state calls and hes home he gets pissed im not paying attention to him and im on the phone, even though when im not on the phone he ignores me the whole time!! im sitting here crying my eyes out thinking how did i let my life get to this point?!?! how did i become fully dependent on a man, and not have any way to escape??? i miss my life before, i miss having my few good friends, and even though my family was toxic to me they were better then nothing at all...like now.