Here I go, Im a mother of 5 who was diagnosed ADHD as a child but never treated other then my mother changed my diet to help out some and St. Johns Wart as a teen. I have always been very good at controling my ups and downs and maybe to my own detriment at times. Back in April I was holding a job and doing well and one day I just woke up and couldnt face anything, didnt want to go to work, didnt want to take care of my kids, didnt want to here my husband, and All I could do was cry it was a sunday! There was no resorce places open I was just going to go talk to the free clinic but no one was open I freaked out and went to the Hospital as I didnt want to go home, They called in a theropist. I talked to her for I know 4 hours and sobbed the entire time she was there she recommended I go to the clinic and I went a few times they have me set up with the Dr that comes there twice a month for first part of Aug that was the soonest they could get me in. In the mean time I had a custody battle with my ex and I lost custoday because I am Not rich and he is! Needless to say Im a little on the FULL of RAGE side right now and I am scaring my kids from it I cant seem to verbilize anything without yelling! I Know I prolly have something more wrong with me then the diagnosed ADHA but never sought treatment because Im afraid of being LABLED especialy since the Judge said I could try again to retain custody of my kids at the time that me and my now husband get back on our feet! I skipped my last appt with the theropist not on perpose I just forgot about having it tell like 3days to late!!! I have been so out of controll the last few days my house has went to shit and needs cleaning, I cant keep my temper, I just want to scream about every noise in the house that I dont make... I feel hated by everyone and I just cant take it I just want to run away. I relate most the the mother in the movie Ya-Ya Sisterhood and at this point in time if I had money or something to sell to just run away for a week I would do so!