Im 19 years old.. graduated in 2011.. my parents divorced when i was 5 and i was really close to my dad but he married my step mom and now has barely anything to do with me (he has chosen to raise my 2 brothers instead) anyways my junior year i dropped out of band and decided to do theatre and FBLA because it was cheaper even though i was an extremely talented trombone player. I was in numerous plays and went to state for FBLA (I raised money with our club doing a bake sale at school so it was free). I got a job my junior year and my dads mom sent me my graduation present extremely early so i could buy a car to get back and forth to work. this was a 1997 toyota that i paid 3000 bucks for. after i got in a wreck we got money back from the insurance company that bought my next car which was also 3000.. i got hit by and 18 wheeler (my mom was extremely pissed.. kicked me out.. wasnt my fault he came in my lane) and that money my mom kept because the car was in her name. Now I have a truck that i have paid for and is in my name. my sister on the other hand has NEVER had a job and is a senior this year.. she has done soccer, band AND danceline and my mom just bought her a 30,000 dollar (brand new) 383 miles on it car. she also just got her whole room furnished with new furniture.. she has not in any way earned this stuff.. She has bad grades as well, while I graduated with honors and was in honors and college courses and am in college along with having a full time job. i just want to know why my dad has chosen my 2 brothers over me and my mom has chosen my sister over me. And if i say something to my mom she says i am ungrateful for what i have.. like i really feel like my parents dont even love me. i OD-ed on meds back aug/11 and she said at the hospital im so tired of her i just want to do for myself. i am pregnant right now and i know my emotions are everywhere but i really feel like im not loved and i just hate living. i hate this. and i have no one to talk to.