I am so fed up with my life - and people telling me "things will get better, only u can change how ur life goes" Well - I always seem to be falling into a bucket of s@*t and sinking. I have tried many things in my years to make things better, and nothing ever works out. I tried to start to different businesses, see others in the same business succeeding, and I never get anywhere. Work my rear off for years, helped others for years, and still do help, thinking the whole "what goes around comes around" idea is real - NOT!!!!!. Every time I turn around, something else is going wrong. I see all these others going out with friends (I have none), going on vacation (I can't), enjoying life and having good things happen to them, (Not me). I want to know what I did to deserve such a rotten life. It started right from the beginning - my only family (on father's side) didn't want anything to do with me. They only wanted my two sisters, and then of course, my only brother after me. I believe what my father said, and mother didn't defend me, when he said he wished it had been me that died, not my brother. Who's the one that helped take care of father before he died - oh yeah, that was me, not my two sisters - but they were always his favorites. I am FED UP!!!! Thanks for listening. Had to let someone know how I feel, noone understands around here. They think all I care about is myself.