First, I want to start by saying I'm very blessed - I have a great family and a good job. I'm lucky in many ways.
Which leads to the selfish aspect of my thoughts...I feel like something is missing. A chunk of me feels empty inside. I see/hear people talking about their friends and social lives. I feel like I need friends to connect with, social things to do...for example, Ive seen people posting about "girls nights out" some recently. I used to do that with my friends a lot, but most of those friends now are living far away, too busy, or we've grown apart.
I'm in my 30s now (not old, I know) and I feel like my life is wasting away. All I do is stay home, go to work, and repeat, day in and day out. I didn't do a lot of fun, crazy stuff like most people my age have done/are doing. Depression hit me hard in my 20s and I feel like I've missed out. I don't want to wake up one day and realize I allowed life to pass me by.
Sorry my thoughts are all over the place. I'm crying as I write this and I don't even know why. I guess it just comes down to feeling bored, lonely, and empty inside.