I feel like I'm falling apart and like my family is falling apart. I am so worn down and upset lately. My son will be a month old tomarrow and I feel like I should be happy, but instead all I can think is how long is he going to scream. When he screams and cries for soooo long I get mad and then I cry b/c I get mad at someone who doesn't understand that I am trying everything I can to make him happy. He is the world to me and I would never hurt him, but sometimes I think about terrible things like shaking him or putting a blanket on him so I can't hear him anymore. It tears me up inside b/c I love him so much, but I feel like he doesn't understand that...or I get so tired or so worn out from taking care of the house and Braydon that I get cranky and my husband and I argue all night...all I want is my family to be happy. I'm so afraid that Braydon won't be a happy baby b/c I'm not happy and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if that happened. I love him so much.
~Daddy's Little Bam Beana all grown up~