Today I feel like a blob. I was supposed to be taken to dinner last night. He even said so on our way to town. But since he wasnt hungry after talking to his friends Then it came to me not being hungy in his opinion. So we came home and I am really tired I still have to give our baby a bath and then he tells me he is going out with his friends. All I said was I didnt think it was a good idea since he goes to work Monday at 6:30 am and he goes to bed at 2 am. Sure he mentioned it before and he sounded like he wasnt going to go. I told him i would like to go. Well it ended up in he was going by himself and I am stuck with baby again. I told him earlier in the day I need a break. Well to him that meant he watches her for the night. Maybe i do want to go out but no one talks to me so he goes and tells his friends to start talking to me. well anyway he argues with me and still leaves after asking me a million times if he can go and why I am mad. He told me only for 1 hr well it was 3 hrs and he goes and eats. its not the firwwswt time this has happened he blows whatever he planned with me to save himself money that he can spend on his freinds. thats up to 100 dollars and then he has the nerve to buy dollar sandwiches at mcdonalds for me but he still bring them cold like they been out for 2 hrs. Then my mom adds on to it and tells him that i had men over and all this crap. well un;like her im not whoring around on my man. sometimes i wish i could disappear. i feel alone and i cant even make friends on this or facebook. facebook only guys friend me to get into my pants everyone else ignores anything i put so i dont see the point of this only to get my emotions out without my family reading it. I hate me but my daughter is the only one keeping me from being an emotionless body walking around .