Hey,! My name is Trisha. I'm 18 years old. I'm from schuylkill county.
I'm currently engaged. & I have a baby boy chase that is 1 month & 4weeks old :)
I joined this mom site because i'm trying to find moms that struggled or struggling with postpardum depression as I am. I had a past of depression way before I got pregnant. Through my pregnancy the only supportive one I really had was my boyfriend. My family just looked down on me and tried to convince me of an abortion or adoption and then treated me like crap for not choosing either and for being with the guy i'm still with today.
Soo soon as I hit 9 months pregnant we got our own place n my family came around but i stil was hiding the hurt they left me with, then I got induced july 31,2012 and had a baby boy that was 8lbs 12oz, 20 1/2 inch long at 2:44pm & later that night I was hit with postpardum depression as they rolled the baby back to the nursery I got the feeling of hurt through my body like i was never going to see him again n i held in my cry n took a deep breathe, then the next day i just looked at him n i wanted to cry, i was just weeping for awhile. Later after my 2 day stay I returned to our appt with our baby boy n i still had the weeps & then soon enough that week i started gettin bazare thoughts well images of seeing myself hurting him & it broke my heart and ripped me apart and after 3 days i couldnt handle it no more and called my doctor for depression medication generic celexa and i was doing goood for about 3 weeks then all of a sudden i thought i was gettin better and then the thoughts worsen like i just thought about hurting him instead of seeing images and then i started takin vitamins everyday n half a celexa n i feel better than b4 but i still don't feel right anyone thats experiencing the same thing as me feel free to add me n help ive been dealing with this for 8 weeks now :(