How are you today? Is there anything you need to talk about?
Again, ladies, I'm so sorry. My schedule is nine kinds of messy.
i am doing ok. the grandkids are here and driving me insane. a good insane. we are going to bake cookies and watch a christmas movie today.
woke up way too early, but drinking some coffee, went through the Sunday ads, and thinking about things I should be doing today. And I don't want to get my hopes up, but a guy asked if I wanted to hang out :-)
Fine, Sunday started out ick but did have some laughs with the pastor and now we're just lazing around.
Had a dream about being rejected by society, actually by the boyfriend's family (<--in the dream, in reality I'm married to someone totally different), so that wasn't a great start, but I'm full of drugs so doesn't matter.
Doing much better, got some jewlery sets made, and feeling like the depression is lifting. Currently getting ready for DH's work Christmas party and nervous.
Tired of crying, of feeling pain , dissappointed... I decided I just dont care as much as i used to. letting go.. doing what i have to do. I wondered why God wasnt given me peace since I become aware of alot and im not acting in my usual normal patterns. I cant keep feeling this distress. NOW -Im not stressing any more. I just dont care as much either. I will take care of me and my kids. Do what my work expects, thats it. Feeling blah ,not happy but not sad. I guess this is what it is , thankful for the little things, especially the time with my kids and pets. No more pain or crying is better.
Having a rough morning and DH just left me there.
- ever_grey
on Dec. 9, 2012 at 10:50 AM