My hubby and I are true soul mates and have been together for 11 years. He's always been *different* in the fact that he says if he can be raised by bikers and still have manners, then the rest of the population sure can. (he has cigarette burns from that lesson). He's also the type of person who says "some assholes in this world, think they can do and say anything and get away with it - well I'll tell them they're not!".
This usually ends up being some type of road rage, chest bumpings, or call outs to perfect strangers who he's felt has dissed him. He's got so much rage inside of him. He works 12 hour shifts, 3 dayd a week. During this time, I can' talk to him - he's a zombie, and a bitch. Everyone walks around on egg shells.
Of course he can't sleep during the day, the dogs, the phone, people being noisy etc...
Now I want to make myself perfecty clear - he will NEVER EVER hit me or take his anger out on me or the kids. But I'm just getting so down about it. When we first got together, he was so happy. He'd say it's a good day if I wake up breathing. Now he looks at waking up, to see who and how he's going to be "punished" today.
I know he has distorted thinking, and he's on celexa and ativan, but he gets pissed that HE has to medicate himself into submission when the problem is the other assholes in the world.
Now I've been feeling like no matter what I do or say, I just can't make him happy. He is totally and completely miserable :((