I am in my mid-30's. About a year ago, I started cutting my own skin. I don't even know why. I just was feeling so hopeless and kept having an incredible urge to cut myself. So, one day I did. I wish I never had because now I feel almost addicted to it. When I do it I feel better...for a little while. And then I feel guilty and ridiculous that I am a grown woman with children with scars all over her legs and arms.
I am working with a therapist to try to get a handle on all this. And today it has been 28 days since I've last cut, which is a huge deal as there was a point in time I was hoping to get through 1 day! But today is hard, hard, hard. I am doing all I can to not cut myself today, but the urge is sooo strong I don't know if I can hold out. Anyone else dealing with this? Any sure fire ways to avoid the urge? And truly, I struggle with trying to figure out why it is bad. Any clear reasons why it is bad to cut yourself?
Just to be clear-I am not suicidal in anyway. This is completely different than being suicidal.