I'm so lost......I dont know if I can do this
I am 23 and my friend of 20 years died. I grew up with her and her brother. Her brother is basically a ghost. Her mother and step father are the same. Me? I feel this hole in me, and I am trying to keep this together but I just...I want to cry, to scream, to beat a punching bag. I am going to her viewing on Wednesday and funeral Thursday...I know I'm going to burst out crying at one.