Why am I still tempted (warning may be a trigger to S.H.)
Okay in case my SH didnt make sense its self harm related so please be warned!
Years ago I self harmed...from the age of 7-20 when I had my baby...
Thing is I still get tempted...am I the only one? I havent had the easiest life (who has) been molested, abused, raped, beaten and controled by my ex. Struggled with deppression and suicidal thoughts in Highschool.
But I have a good life now I have a little 7 year old boy, sure its not the best I am a single mom, not really close to most of my family. My EX kept me from most of my friends so dont have too many of those.
I much rather stay home and read romance books and see my self as the muched loved and adored female character that has a good man for her. Then go out. Public places send me into a panic.
But being tempted to cut again??? Hell I am 28 years old...why am I crying reading this and wanting to feel the pain again? I am in enough daily physical pain as it is.
Hoping no one gets triggered from this and someone can help...and no I do not have money for a conceller....