I don't have anywhere to turn to. Please bare with me 2/17 update
Fast forward a few weeks its now my grandma's birthday. She turned 88. Her positioning requirements are now 30 mins every 2hrs alternating sides face into pillow. If up head must be faced down at all times.she started feeling pressure on her eyes. She said its been there awhile and yea her eye pressures have been running high(20+). Normal is 15ish for her.
Now my aunt calls to tell me my uncle took her to an appointment today and that there is blood around the eye and the surgery didn't take and now they have to remove her eye.
This is where I'm freaking. I'm getting married in 37 freaking days! My mind is screaming at me to race up to the nursing home and beat the shit out of the nurses because its their freaking fault she is in this situation. They never obeyed the positioning requirements.
Sorry, I need a break explaining. I'm crying so hard I can't see the screen.
*update: sitting here with grandma, her speech is slury and getting hard to understand. She was awake for a few mins but has been sleeping since 3:45. I'm just sitting here holding her hands watching her sleep. She has been very confused. She did get out a thought that her pizza sucked last night. We had a good laugh at that. She asked if we had money for a sandwich from the gas station(her fave).
She got me emotional today. I was telling her about my job like I normally do. I explained to her that I wasn't happy there and I was going to look for a 2nd job. Hopefully in a daycare so I can use my degree. She told me not to. I asked why and she told me that I am going to have my hands full shortly. I asked her what she meant and she told me my time is coming soon. I know what she is referring to but it just shocked me and made me tear up. Df and I have been trying for 3 years to get pregnant. Well I'm pretty sure my grandma just told me im either pregnant or shortly will be!