Is there any one thing that makes you TRULY hapot?

[Sarah14094]

Not jusr for a minute, or something you laugh or smile at, but something that makes you truly happy, without fail, without a second guess, without wondering if its short lived or if you deserve it? I cant find anything. I hate myself for it. Why cant I be happy with what I have (I truly am blessed) instead of being miserable?

[ashleighmama]

Well, I would like to give the answer that I think I "should" give, and that would be my kids, but as much as I WANTED them and love them and despite the fact that they DO make me happy, I always have a dark cloud of depression hanging over me that makes it hard to be TRULY happy. Theres always an emptiness inside me that I cant seem to get rid of.

[Kayla2013]

Him! Tian Joshua. No matter my day I have him. He has been with me through some of my toughest times. His name means day in Chinese. So he is what I look forward to.

[reindeer-c]

I feel the exact same way about myself.

Quoting ashleighmama:

Well, I would like to give the answer that I think I "should" give, and that would be my kids, but as much as I WANTED them and love them and despite the fact that they DO make me happy, I always have a dark cloud of depression hanging over me that makes it hard to be TRULY happy. Theres always an emptiness inside me that I cant seem to get rid of.

[matreshka]

Honestly, its getting time to beable to be creative, listening to my music, reading a book, doing my art.  Laughter and happiness are fleeting for me but I love goofing around with DH and my kids.