i had been feeling better but today i have been upset. i have been crying most of the day. i realize what some of it is. everybody was either gone or in the bed until 2 today and i got very lonely and that was a trigger for me. i like having someone to talk to. everyone is up this evening and i am doing a little better. it seems i dont know what to do with myself when i am alone unless its in the middle of the night and it doesnt bother me. the weather was yucky here this morning with sleet and snow. i need to pack my clothes to go with my husband to ga this weekend and im not getting anywhere. my dil is supposed to be helping me but shes only come out of her room one time today. im trying not to worry about things because i know ultimatley they will get done but im just tired of waiting. i am also paying her to clean my house and i dont feel like she is putting forth enogh effort. believe me i will adjust the rate of pay for this. thanks for listening and letting me get this off my chest.