I am in therapy for depression and the such. I've been seeing my therapist for about a year already. She has established that she knows what she's doing, she's trustworthy, she cares, etc. But I am having the hardest time opening up.
It isn't her. It's me. I don't really open up to people in general. I know I need to talk through some painful things from my past and the last few years in order to really heal. But I just can't. I have a block up; a wall which I can't define. Part of me is scared that I will go completely crazy if I start looking at some things from my life. Part of me thinks I'm tough and can handle it all without talking. Part of me just doesn't want to rely on someone else emotionally. And then there is the big part of me that won't talk for reasons I cant figure out. I feel stuck.
My therapist knows I'm stuck and is doing her best to help me through, but I just feel like a stubborn mule.
How can I open up to my therapist? Any ideas?