I have posted about my grandma and her health. About how close the wedding is. Well life just crumbled last night. With all the stress and my hours being cut I was having a bad day. Steven, my df, called me on his way home and informing me that he was picking a new girl at work up on Friday cause she doesn't have a ride. I acted before I thought about it. I snapped and freaked out. We have had a few issues with him having racy and sexy texts on his phone a few months ago but we worked it out. Apparently this couldn't be worked out. I know I have trust issues, anxiety, depression, insecurities but I am working on them. I have the fear of being cheated on because of my ex. Well he turned his phone off on the way home, knowin it makes me freak more and the weather was horrible(7inches of snow). He texted me after I turned my phone off and told me we are over. That he talked to his dad and was coming to get clothes and went to his dad's. if I tried to stop him I'd be arrested. I got him to finally reason with me that we are still engaged, 100% faithful and entrusted to each other and will not see anyone else. I also got him to agree to do counseling. I found a great lady and set up an appointment for Friday at 10:30am. So he will be coming back tomorrow to stay and go to the meeting with me. It's 25 days til the wedding. He claims I control him. If I do I'm oblivious to it and have no ideas. Please keep us in your prayers and that things work out for the best and we can still get married. I will fight for him and I know he will fight for me.
*update* he came home Wednesday night. Things were awkward but he ended up giving me a hug and a kiss on the lips. Yesterday he got sick and I went with him to the dr. The dr deemed it was stress induced and to stay home yesterday. It was a great day yesterday. We had a mini snowball fight, we laughed and joked around. I rented a Xbox game he has been wanting for awhile. We took a nap together and made dinner together. It was as if nothing happened. he even asked me if I thought counseling was a good idea. I told him lets just see how it goes and then go from there. The lady was nice. She is religious based counseling. I will admit my faith is lacking and I hope to become more religious. We are Christian. We believe that a relationship and a marriage are great things and all great things take time, effort, and communication. Today was rough but it was a first step. This was the first major fight we have had. The counselor asked if we have to get married in 22 days. We looked at each other and back at her and at the same time said yes, it's what we feel is right. So thank you for keeping us in your prayers. They are very appreciated and welcomed.
on Feb. 27, 2013 at 1:42 PM