See what CafeMoms are saying about saving time this holiday season..
That I'm med sensitive and treatment resistant. I've been seeing her for over 3 years. She has watched as she has put me on every psych med to try to stabilize my moods and reduce my anxiety, and seen the side effects I've had to deal with and has played the waiting game with me while we saw which meds simply did not have an effect on me. She has actually red my histories and reports from docs before her too, and everything I've been through since I was 27 on all these meds, ECT, hospitalizations, respite stays...
My husband who is somewhat anti-med has been telling me to go back on klonopin. When I have told the people who know me well that I am weaning off meds they look scared. That in itself makes me feel like a freak.
No one in my life seems to care that I have dealt with complex migraines, high blood pressure, edema, serious weight gain, tremors, hallucinations, med induced mania, and more, all in the quest to try to make myself better.
I hate having bipolar I. I hate having a mental illness. I hate that the meds never really worked. And I really just hate myself right now.