I wonder why I am so depressed sometimes
It is no wonder I get so depressed sometimes. As if going through financial struggles on top of everyday struggles isn't enough. i have only one person I can talk to and that is my husband. So my husband and I are going through some financial struggles right now it will get better it is just a speed bump however he has a playstation 3 he does not play and he let my brother (who lives with my mom) barrow it. So I call my mom up and say hey we need our craigslist treasure (that is what i call things that sale really well on craigslist.) So instantly her defensive mode turns on like I should not be getting my stuff because my brother enjoys it and gets all pissy. I am like well for the first time in a long time I am have troubles feeding my kids so I need to sale it. She is like omg I am worse off then you I can't even afford bandages (as she is probably eating a big mac because the eat fas food every day) I am like ok I am sorry if it offends you that I want to sale something that belongs to me. So obviously i can not talk to my Mom without her having a worse situation and she is like what happened why are you like this all of a sudden you know Shaun and I have nothing.... I wasn't going to ask her I learned a long time ago I cannot count on her for anything but no she goes into this whole spill about how poor she is (to prevent me from even asking them to bring me my ps3 I am sure). Damn I hate my mother and yeah my Brother too he is the same damn way all i wanted to do was call and say hey I am picking up my ps3 and her say ok... I just never want to talk to her again I hate her. I really trully 100% HATE MY MOTHER AND MY BROTHER BOTH. Believe me it got worse. Because I told her I had no sympothy for someone who can afford to eat out 3 times a day and she has heart deseasse and she feeds herself greasy fast food She doesn't do anything to help it except take the fishoil pills well I got news for her she has to change everything. So she tells me I know nothing about it. So I finally had to tell her that I have things going on with me that leads to heart disease something I had no intentions on telling her because like I said everything is always worse for her and I had to change my life style. And of corse she gets mad at me because I am actually doing it and tells me how stupid I am. I'm the stupid one I start exercising I change my diet to reverse the damage I have done to myself.