it seems im back to making these posts again. i had another bad day. i have cried all day. i miss my husband so bad and theres nobody to talk to here. i dont have any friends. my daughter and son are busy with their lives and seems like they dont have time to include me. tomorrow i think i am going to get out and have some fun. i might take myself out to breakfast and go shopping for some things i need to get. wish me luck.