I've been battling depression since I was 9. The last few months, I think I've had some anxiety attacks but I'm not really positive. I don't know what it feels like or any signs/symptoms. People have told me "oh, you'll feel anxious." The only anxious I've really ever felt is the thrill of something, never anything bad. I really can't explain it. But, I can say that lately when I get really mad about something, even the smallest things, I start shaking and feeling like my head is going to fly off. My husband was helping me with the dishes the other day, he put something away moved back and stepped on my foot. I blew up like the world was coming to an end. My 3 year old, if she doesn't pick up her toys or do something I've asked her to do I completey lose it. She REALLY likes to walk in front of me when I'm in a hurry and the more I tell her to go go go the sloooooower she goes and it pisses me off to no damn end! I've been soooo frustrated with everything lately, I've had a lot of stress lately and I really just want to hurt someone. SERIOUSLY HURT SOMEONE! I hate feeling this way, and I take my medication every day religiously, I've tried going to church and didn't feel any different whatsoever, I just don't know what to do! I just wonder if its any signs or symptoms of anxiety. I have a wonderful doctor who listens to every word I say and treats me like a human being, but he just tells me I need to eliminate some stress in my life and relax. HOW THE HELL DOES ONE RELAX?! My husband works 55 hours a week, sometimes more, I work 40 (not allowed to have overtime) and we're still struggling with our bills. I can't relax thinking that something is going to get shut off.