I am new to Cafe Mom, seeking an oulet for my struggles and some way out of isolation, self-imposed to an extent. I have had depression and anxiety most of my life. I am 34, a working wife and mama to a 14 month old girl. My symptoms were very manageable for a while, not even too bad during the pregnancy until I hit my 8th month. Since then I have been depressed, stressed, and anxious. I had to take myself off the insurance because it was too expensive, so meds aren't an option. Counseling is expensive, and my schedule is difficult. I'm desperate for someone to talk to. I have had suicidal thoughts many many times, but I made a promise to my baby girl that I wouldn't leave her. I withdraw because I feel like people don't want to be around me, and I don't like to be around people anymore (at the same time that I need it-crazy right?). It is hard for me to even post this. Anyhow, I appreciate your reading.
on Apr. 14, 2013 at 5:45 PM