I lost my baby in 2011. I was pregnant the same time as my sister in law, my niece is 2 now. I cant get over how she is so easily get pregnant but I am having so many issues. I tried therapy only one therapist helped but she moved away. Whenever I see my niece my heart breaks. I know it isnt my SIL fault nor my nieces but in my heart it still hurts. I feel so guilty for feeling this way. It has but a gap between me and my niece.