My Life With Depression, Anxiety, and Agoraphobia Is Never Going To Change, Is It?
For the past 15 years, I have suffered with depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and agoraphobia. Everyday when I wake up, I wonder what my day will be like and how my thoughts, brain, and body will dictate the way my day will turn out.I don't know if I ever will feel free and truly happy. Why do I have to feel like this every day of my life? Will I ever be able to go anywhere far away from my home and not panic and think I'm going to die? Will I ever be able to wake up for just one morning and not feel scared and panicky? Why can't I be normal? Why do I keep thinking that something bad is going to happen to me? It's only a dream that I'll be able to go on my first plane trip to see the mountains or swim in the ocean. There is a whole world out there that i will never see. The only relief I get from feeling this way is when I'm asleep. Sometimes I wish I could just sleep,for,days and days because reality and life is too hard. My anxiety and panic consume me.My husband and children are suffering also because of me. They can't live a normal life because of me. I don't think I'll ever be strong enough to win the battle of depression, anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia in my life.