Dh and I have been ttc since December. Other months I was disappointed but whatever about it. This month I was a week and a half late and allowed myself to get my hopes up and believe that this might really be it only to get let down again.
most of the time I'm sad but okay but throughout the day ill start bawling randomly without warning. I feel like I'm grieving the loss of a pregnancy I never had. And then i feel stupid for getting so upset over it. Dh is trying his best to be supportive but he works and stays out of town 5-6 days a week so he won't be home until tomorrow night.
ive been ignoring everything I should be doing except taking care of my dd. I just don't give a damn about anything right now. I don't even want to keep ttc ing right now. I just want to crawl under the covers of my bed and cry until its better.