I'm bipolar and borderline. i have been struggling with this for years. My bipolar is also very severe. I normally cycle about every four days. I have cycled through out the day, too. When I am really cycle te stress of it flares up my borderline and I'm left wondering which is which. My mother also plays a big part in my borderline diagnosis. She has no compassion for what I've gone through and refuses to hear that i am even bipolar. She blames me for being sick, and blames me when things go wrong in my family. My 14 year old was recently diagnosed bipolar, as well. And, feels that I'm putting him on unecessary medication. But, my 19 year old and husband feels the same way. I have no support, and I feel desperate. My husband says that I never feel good and I feel so much guilt for being sick. I feel guilty all the time. My doctor says that this is what makes me borderline. I haven't felt suicidal in a while, but I do feel like giving up. I feel like everyone is against me.i have so much going on. My 19 year old son is getting married and then goes off to bootcamp a week later. He joined the Army infantry. We put him through private school, so that he would have better options, but he is so angry with me for being sick that he did this out of spite. I can't talk about this with anyone because it is so overwhelming, so please I need a friend.