I'm having a really hard as of late, I just want to crawl in a hole and hide away from the world! As some of you know I have PTSD and BPD which was caused by some stuff that happened when I was younger. At the age of 14 I was sexaully abused by my sister's boyfriend at the time, and than in 2008 I was rapped by someone who said and i thought was my friend. Well the "man" (his not a man in my book) who rapped me showed up at my work a few days ago and ever since then, I have been having a really hard time coping with anything. I never pressed charges against because I was afraid that with my past history of sexual abuse the cops wouldn't believe me, so I never saw justice be done to him. And every time I feel better and I feel like things are starting to move along nicely for me one of them shows back up and destorys everything i have worked for. I just don't know what to do anymore, I know I shouldn't let them have power over me but I just want to run and hide from them and cry my eyes. My husband has been very understanding of everything and is trying to be supportive but it doesn't always fully understand what I am going through since, he has never dealt with these kinds of things before. I'm just not sure what to do anymore.