Because of all the things I have been through over the years, I realize that I am emotionally, mentally and physically burned out and drained along with my depression. I am very tired and sleep a lot. Even though I get a lot of sleep, I am still tired. I didn't realize I was going through all this and just kept drinking coffee and popping caffeine pills not knowing why neither were working. I tried to work some shifts on my prn jobs but when I worked the first one, I felt like I was going to have a break down due to the overwhelming stress. So I called out for the next day shift. Hopefully, they won't fire me. I just couldn't bring myself to go through it.
I am trying my best to keep up with everything but as soon as I get one thing done, other things are piling on top of my already overflowing plate. I hate to check the mailbox because I am afraid that there is going to be more bad news. Sigh. I wish I had help. I never imagined that my life would be like this. Oh well. I will continue to pray.