Last Sunday, my husband came down with bronchitis. He gets it pretty much every year and it really knocks him on his butt for a while. This means basically that I'm taking care of husband and the house and my little ones all week and I haven't been "myself" as it is... so son stopped by last Sunday to borrow gas money (again) and husband told him that he needs to find someone to watch the boys on Friday because he is sick and he can't help me take care of four kids all under the age of 6. Son says "yeah, yeah, ok" as he is walking out the door.
So son had 6 days to make arrangements. Friday comes along and he calls and asks if he can bring them and I said "hun, we told you on Sunday...." Well, he started yelling, getting kind of snotty saying we didn't tell him that.
My 18 yo was able to go over and watch the boys that day, she tried to defend us when he was telling his friends that we tried to basically screw him over, that we tried to "play" him...
I don't understand what I've done to make him think this way about me. We used to be so close. We had such a close bond, I thought he knew that I would never do anything to "screw" him over, but he honestly thinks I'm lying and he is telling people that.
I love him. I love my grandsons. For a long time I had to beg him to bring them over, but they were mad because we couldn't babysit all the time or they were busy, usually with the other grandparents.
I can't tolerate loud noises and I was having panic attacks and I was afraid. But he seems to thinks I'm lying. This isn't how I wanted it to be, I'd give anything to feel like I did just 5 years ago.
For a long time I watched those babies grow up on facebook and I'm scared it's going to be like that again all because my husband was sick this weak and my son is so hardheaded and wasn't listening to us.
I've been crying all weekend, triggered a darn migraine and I can't sleep again. Here I thought I was feeling better. Right back to where I was a year ago. My husband is so angry with him,
So sorry for rambling :(