So i have overcome sooooo much in my short 25 yrs - i wasmolested by a brother, raped by my first 2 boyfriends (starting at age 13 and lasting until age 16 - i was so scared to leave them because they also beat the shit out of me and i was so young i didn't know what to do) then after i broke up with the last one one of his friends raped me and my job... i overcame all that and i was doing so well.... BUT then in 2012 they told me i couldn't have anymore kids (i'm married to a wonderful man and have a son and a daughter) but because of health issues they said i needed to tie my tubes. so i did. But i was ok with it, because if my health issues ever got better i could reverse it... but last week i had to see a surgeon to discuss a hysterectomy. im devastated. I cry when ever i see my facebook friends and family posting about their pregnancies. It breaks my heart. I'm soooooo devastated :( I was invited to a friend of my moms baby shower this saturday - 2 days before my hysterectomy. I told her i couldn't do it. i couldn't go she got mad and said i'm being mean and irrational. She has never really been a mom, my sister - who is 9 years older than me pretty much raised me up until she abdoned me for drugs (she has since made her life better and is married to a wonderful man they own their own business. and our kids are the same age) but my mom is still acting like a friend not a mom. which i'm used to. I have 2 mother in laws who are moms to me... different issues lol... anyways. Have any of you one here experiened this whole emotional rollercoster that is a hysterecomy?