Well i am ready for this month to be over with. For starters my phone service was cancelled without me being told. Then Friday i walked 4 miles in the heat and almost passed out. Made it to the mobile company in time to tell me it cancelled due to nonpayment. Tried to explain that i was on my way in to pay it after work and got told i would have to pay reconnect fees as well as my past due. Didn't have that. So my hubby got service in his name and was cheaper to do than to have it in my name.
On a positive note i was called by a school district that i applied for two years ago. Had my interview, fingerprinting and now Tuesday i go in for my orientation. I am so happy about that. Will be leaving the care of the elderly again. Which makes me sad but happy i will be able to help out in feeding childern while they are in school. Plus this will help with us needing to find someone to watch my stepson after school cause i will be at home when he gets home.
Now today was not a good day either for me. I some how injured my left hip and i am not for sure if it was at work or in this hotel we have been staying at. Either way i am in pain. It does not help when my hubby who is not working right now can not help out. I mean he could have taken his son school shopping and let me rest but no he didn't. He didn't even think to come look for me when i didn't make it home at my regular time. Instead i came in to see him playing video games.
Not sure what to do with him anymore. I sometimes feel like i am no long in love with him anymore. I am praying that once he either starts working again or go back to school or even join the military again then things will get better. Right now i am stressed out and have no one to talk to. Oh couseling is out cause he says there is no problem. Plus anytime someone from church tries to talk to him he goes deaf. Which is funny cause now poeple see what i go through with him. And if he thinks i am going to have a baby with him he is out of his mind.
I did tell myself that before this year is out. I will be making moves that is for me. I am going to make myself happy even if it means no longer being married or being in my stepson's life. I have to get rid of the stress i am dealing with.