The weekends are the worse when it comes to me dealing with my depression. But this weekend was easier because I decided to take extreme measures. On early Saturday morni g, I went to an information session on peripheral neuropathy and ate the complimentary refreshments afterwards. I met a great lady there who was great to talk to and down to earth. Afterwards I went to this free book give away and was able to get fantastic books there. I chatted here and there with random people. I enjoyed the atmosphere and the positive energy. Shortly afterwards, I went to the grocer and bought myself a cup of MD Crab soup and enjoyed it. All and all I kept doing different things to keep myself motivated. When I became tired, I parked in a park and went to sleep. Eventually I went to a park and a gathering.
I did not get home until about 10:30 p.m. During my time running around, the loneliness was trying to attack me but I kept fighting it. I tried my best to avoid negative atmospheres. Although I stayed up watching tv shows until almost 3 a.m because I felt the loneliness seeping in., I felt like I was better at being successful in battling the negative thoughts of being lonely and not looking how I would like to look. Today was also trying because it was difficult dealing with the feelings but things worked out for me since I kept fighting to keep it positive.
I am not out of the woods yet but things are definetely looking better. The struggle definetely continues.
Thanks for "listening".
on Aug. 17, 2014 at 9:04 PM