So when I was growing up I was a little pudgy according to people (looking back on photos I disagree and my parents were not educated about nutrition and forced me into diets) but then my weight skyrocketed to obesity when I sixteen. My family was very abusive about image , and while my parents were away on a vacation I was sexually abused in the home, and that's when my weight, drug and alcohol use, and self injury problems started. I was never bullied or picked on by kids at school; I was bullied by adults. Parents and teachers were horrible, or maybe it seemed that way because my self esteem had been severed.
Here's the deal; I am very healthy now; my body is my temple and I am in college, I have a wonderful relationship with a man finally--- I have a great life, and while I am haunted by the past, I only look to the future.
This is what I realized the most after I got clean and very physically fit; All the people who were after me about my image are a bunch of addicts/alcohalics and have weight problems. Now they pick on me for being healthy (therefore I have cut my family off). Why is this? Is it just abuse in any form they can find, or is it an attempt to cover up family secrets?
To anyone out there struggling, you really are not alone and after a while you just have to realize that there is no problem to large or small worth hurting yourself over. If you stay clean keep working towards physical health you will feel better upstairs----trust me.