It's not just this, though. I get stressed and extremely fearful when the THOUGHT of going out arises; be it for a day at the zoo, a weekend camping, or a week at a relative's house, to the point that I find myself at home while the family is out having fun. I feel so bad, because I don't want this to affect my girls - they're both social butterflies. I want them to experience the world in so many ways, but I'm truly having a hard time leaving the house ( I'll take them to school, or the library where I can sit in the back by myself). I feel like I'm fucking crazy and now it's affecting my relationship with my husband because he can't understand why I never want to hang out with him; but it's not HIM and it has never been him, it's the fact that to him, quality family time means getting out and doing stuff together, a move that I'm severely uncomfortable with.
I don't know what to do or how to handle this. Has anyone else ever been through this? I'm just so sick of being stuck behind these walls :-(