There is something really wrong and it's making me cry.
One hundred and seventy fucking pounds; in 19 days.........
I go from 163 to 170...
A 7 pound GAIN in 19 fucking days!
I BUST MY BALLS 6 days per week in the gym; I rarely go over my calories and if I do, it's nothing major since I'm set up to loose 2lbs per week so even if I went over even by 500 I still should be loosing at least 1lb per week....but noooooooooooooooooooo it seems in these 2 odd weeks, I've gained 2lbs per week and then one.
I'm seriously in tears because I'm now officially the biggest I've ever been in my life and all of my hard work I'm doing for absolutely NOTHING.
I'm trying so hard to not be this massive tub of lard and look so damn disgusting and what happens? I gain MORE weight.
No, my clothes aren't fitting better, they're getting tighter, too.
I don't know what to do.
I'm about to say fuck it and give up and just starve myself.