I need to lose at least 30lbs , I am currently at 160 and not very happy about it . Years ago I got up to 200 from 110 because of depression , I left my abusive situation and for down to 125 . I was happy about things and reconnected with a childhood bf (my now df) ever since my misscariges and the birth of my daughter I kept on a little weight then they changed my birthcontrol because of an issue and I gained 30lbs in less that a month :( they took me off the BC but now I feel stuck in this fat body!! I have body dismorphic disorder so I already hate my looks and this doesn't make it any better !! My df works offshore so I'm into this crappy depression but I must pull myself out before I ge in too deep.