I'm ready to throw in the towel. Long...sorry
This is so flipping frustrating!! I was so close to my goal before the holidays. I only needed about 7 pounds to go. Finally less than 10 freakin pounds!!!
Well, after being away from home for only 10 days (we went to visit family out of state) I gained 6 pounds. So now I'm 13 freaking pounds away from my goal. 13 FREAKING POUNDS!!!! We've been home since the 1st, I said to myself, " it's okay because I did over eat a little, it's probably mostly just bloating. I'm not used to eating all that food anymore. I just need to get back to what I was doing before, it will be fine.". Here it is, 20 days later and I've only lost 1 stupid flipping pound! How is this possible?? No, I wasn't expecting to be what I was when we left, but I WAS hoping to have lost more than 1 stupid pound.
As soon as we got home I went right back to eating the way I was before going out of town. Shouldn't that alone have helped in some way?? No, I haven't been working out everyday since we've been home, but I also wasn't working out every single day before either.
It's so hard to stay positive after this. I was only 3 pounds away from finally being out of the 140's. I was so proud of myself, especially since it took me over 2 months to get out of the 150's. Now I'm 3 pounds away from being back into the 150's.
I feel like I'm meant to just be fat for the rest of my life. I can't motivate myself to do anything right now. I tried to get back into doing Insanity today, but I couldn't even get my self to "jog it out" when the video first started!
I hate that I've let myself get this way. I'm just really hating myself right now.