height: 65.5 inches
I cried looking at that number. I never imagined myself getting that big. I keep thinking, "how did I let myself go that badly?" My fiancee loves me as I am, but I feel he is just enabling me to continue this weight gain. I don't want to die young, and I don't want to be the mom, my son is ashamed of. I am not saying I want to be model thin like I was as a teenager (at age 12-17 I was 106-110 lbs). I just want to be healthy. I wish I could lose 122 by December, but I would be happy to just get under 200lbs. By December 2014, I want to be 150 and keeping it off.
*The hard part*
I have already cut out pop. This is day #3 for me. I like not having pop in my diet. It is actually really a great feeling for me. I am not expecting to lose 100lbs from that alone, but it is a start in the right direction. I have to work out, but most of those routines make me more self concious because of all of the fat flopping around, BUT I did work out for 10 minutes before my asthma(another thing I am hoping will go away with the weight) kicked in.I am going to try walking around the house today and hopefully tomorrow I can go outside (I am not going out today because my son needs someone to watch him while I would be gone that hour so he isn't out in the rain too).