How do you ladies find the motivation? I'm so depressed, and feel defeated... Last yr I was at my highest weight, (145ish) Wish is a lot for me considering my healthy and stable weight is around 125-130ish. I decided I would do something about it, however I just never got around to it! I weighed for the first time in months and I am now up to 155! I only weighed 159 when I had my last baby! So I'm nearly the size of when I was 9 months preggo :( I am going to the gym today, and I changed my diet a bit and started taking Alli yesterday, however I'm just worried I wont be able to keep it up. I have good ideas and know what I need to do, its just making myself do it! I have had the 30 Day Shred for 6 months, and have never completed it even once. I just got a membership at a gym, and I'm afraid like in the past it will just be a waste of money because I will be able to come up with every excuse not to go. What can I do to make myself do what needs to be done? I will be 30 this year, and if I dont take action now I know I will be out of control in the next few years!