Anyway, I'm down *about* 70 lbs, 30-35 inches off my body, 3 comfortable dress sizes, 4-5 shirt sizes, and depending on the brand between 3-5 jean sizes.
I'm lighter and healthier than I have been in 5 years. I still have a long way to go, but everyone irl keeps telling me how proud they are of me and how great I look. This is a double edged sword for me because im glad they notice, but it also gives me a false sense of accomplishment. The problem is that when I look in the mirror, I still see myself as I did when I was at my heaviest. I KNOW that I've lost a lot, and I do see the changes, yet I still don't really feel accomplished because I know how far I have to go yet. I still see myself as fat and disgusting when I look in the mirror. And when I hit big milestones, I tend to slack off and lose motivation.
My question is, how do I move past this? I want to feel good about myself and see the progress I've made without settling. And when I finally reach my goal, I want to be able to look in the mirror and see myself how I am, not how I was.
I guess I'm afraid to actually hit my target weight because I'm worried I still won't be satisfied. I'd also be lying if I said I wasn't afraid of loose skin. I know that I will have loose skin and that terrifies me because I'm afraid that when I hit my target, I won't be able to focus on the loss, but rather the *gain* of loose skin. This is not my only concern though. Ugh.
So tell me, is it normal to still see yourself as you were when you began your journey rather than the accomplishments you've made?