Arrrgh so frustrated with myself!!!
So after a STELLAR spring I was down to my lowest since last Oct (when we moved and I fell off the wagon) down to 176. Well I decided to stop counting calories since I had been doing it religiously for over 5 months. Weight loss stalled through July-Sept. No biggie. i had lost a lot in June (12lbs) so I expected it to take a little time. Problem was life started to get hectic in Sept, so I was only running 2-3 days a week, and I've been struggling all along to get myself on a regular strength training routine. I started with kettle bell videos on youtube for a few weeks, and found them lots of fun.
End of Sept/beginnign of Oct things became super hectic, plus my hayfever has been kicking my butt! I try to make it to spin class 1-2 days a week, and aqua zumba once a week, but other than my classes I have only been running once a week, (2-3 miles at a time) and still no strength training regularly!! I'm SO mad at myself and I'm sick of making these excuses!! On top of that we have been traveling every weekend (End of sept we went to my dad's house = 2 hrs away, 1st week of oct my dad's gf's house 2.5 hrs away, 2nd week in Oct we went on vacation to Memphis for 4 days = 12 hrs away, last weekend went to DH's family 3 hrs away, and this weekend we go to my dad's place 2 hrs away again). So that has meant too much "car food" and in "vacation mentality" DH has talked me into way to much junk. During the week I eat very clean but I know I'm blowing it every weekend.
I KNOW I need to go back to counting caloires. I KNOW I need to throw out the junk that DH keeps buying (he works for WM and buys way too many treats!!) I KNOW I shouldn't be on CM right now, I should either be sleeping or doing my kettle bell routine (it was Aqua Zumba night) but I feel so unbelievably drained by Monday morning that it literaly takes me until Thursday to feel like I have enough energy again!! I know part of that is our hectic schedule, part of it is NOT working out and that I will feel better if I get up and move (although tonight after ZUmba all I wanted to do was sleep), and I know part of it is that my diet is lacking and I'm feeling hte ill effects.
I KNOW ALL OF THIS!! I KNOW I JUST NEED TO DO IT!!
Not sure hte point of this post. I'm not very motivated right now! I need this group. I need to click on it every day and read other peoples progress, I need to face the uncomfortable truths that I know my goals are attainable and I can't just give up on this plateau (I'm actually back up 5 lbs :( )
I heard a great analogy the other day that big changes like this are like a man riding an elephant. Your brain is the rider. He knows how to get where you want to go. He knows the path and can show the elephant the way. Your body is the elephant. It's not easy for the tiny man to control the direction the elephant wants to go. It needs to make it easy and make the elephant want to go in that direction. But the elephant is easily spooked and once it goes off with all of it's strength in a different direction it takes a very skiled rider to reign it back in and bring it back on to the path. Time to get my elephant body back on the path! I'm hoping this pounding headache is gone by morning. Alarm is set for 5;30 so I can do those kettle bells!
Good night world!