Some thoughts on binge eating recovery...
I finally just decided to push forward and keep moving. It has honestly been hard. It is almost like I dug a hole and pushed some feelings in and covered it with food/body fat..and it is way deep inside me. Every time I binged I stuffed more feelings in that whole and covered it with more food/body fat. so on and so forth until I reached the point that enough was enough and I had to work my way back down.
This hasn't just been a weight loss journey for me. It has been learning who I really am and how to deal with all of these feelings. Both negative and positive.
I feel that with ever lb that comes off I am unearthing another old feeling that was buried so long ago. It is like finding a treasure or trinket you kept in a box from so long ago. It instantly brings back the memories and the pain. I have had to mentally pick up each one of those trinkets with each lb that has come off. I have had to learn to embrace these feelings.. look at them head on and deal with them.
It has not been easy..but accomplishing a great feat rarely is.
I am not the same person I was 70 lbs. ago..or 50, or 20 or even 5. I am stripping these lbs and these feelings off, dealing with them and casting them aside.
They are not coming back! I am becoming the person I am meant to be.
My journey is not complete, and for all I know I may never be finished. However, with every lb I lose I am also gaining emotional and physically strength and health!