getting back on wagon and hating videos
well i am getting back to working out again after a bad flu knocked me down, got a big workout ball to help me doing ab things, and of course using my gazzelle thing as well.
however a friend who is on the east coast asked / demanded i do this 30 day yoga challenge with her, its free, by a lady named erin motz, just subscribe will email you the things, well you also can unsubscribe at any time.
im not sure how many people are like i am with workout videos, you see i back talk and bitch at the instructor despite knowing full well they cant hear me, hey it just feels good. im not sure how many others do that though, i enjoy being able to do that hence why id rather not go to an actual class or group setting. a few years back i was trying to do that p90x system, poping the dvds in , it was rough, but pretty funny with my commentary at least i thought. it just brings me a sliver of joy, maybe its getting stress and frustration out verbally that i do this with workout videos. or telling them to bite me. that they are a freak of nature, normal people arent supposed to bend this way ect.
anyway since starting back working out ive lost the 3 lbs that i gained back over the course of a few months of being lazy and then the week of the flu that helped me procrastinate further. i really do need to lose weight, about 60-70 lbs to get to 140. but i feel overwelmed with those big numbers, feel like i wont make it (with how much more my pelvis spread the last pregnancy its more realistic that i may only make it to 155 lbs)
im trying to limit myself into thinking and taking things in 10 lb incriments, just seems easier, more managable veiw. as for working out goals im going to gradually increase the distance i go on my gazzelle thing every few days. im trying not to obsessivly weigh mysef, as for food, well i love food, i just do not do deprovation, fuck that. nomnomnomnom. but on the upside, i love alot of stuff, alot of veggies, but refuse to diet, yet instead of just not having junkfoods around as usual anyway, just going to buy extra amounts of healthy stuff i like anyway. my eating problems are mainly i get side tracked and forget to eat, sometimes until dinner time. bad i know, trying to work on having snacks and non dinner type meals around and get myself to eat normal meal times and snacks, get better sleep drink more water yada yada yada.